Christmas is around the corner and I love it! This time of the year is so cosy to me, it’s always been – although the food and sweets used to be challenging for me. It wasn’t more than four years ago I last had a tricky Christmas food wise. I had recovered from my ED but I still had regrets after eating certain things and it was very much “all or nothing” for me. There is nothing I am more sure about than the fact that we create all of this in our heads – both the cravings, obsessions and regrets. It is so clear to me today that I was so obsessed with the thought of food that I confused my body. It got so many different signals at the same time that it didn’t know what to do or how to respond. You see, when I was limiting myself from things that I wanted to eat, it lead to a strong and irresistible desire of having it – while I simultaneously felt panicked about the mere thought of eating it. What usually happened was that I resisted the desire all day, all evening but then at the end of the night I couldn’t resist it anymore and I ate that or those things I had wanted all day. I ate it while feeling regrets, panic and shame – so my body reacted with anxiety, nausea and stress. This is not a healthy behaviour – and, although this might be an extreme, I know that many women eat like this.. Unfortunately, I see this all year around but especially during Christmas time or other holidays. This is not good for us, we have to stop this and the only way to do so is by working on our relationship with food and our thought patterns around it. It also requires work on our body image, self-love and our sense of worthiness. Trust me, they are all linked in one way or another and if you recognise yourself in this behaviour you most likely have one or more limiting beliefs around yourself and food. The positive part of all of this, the real beauty of it all – is that we can get rid of all of this, we can free ourselves! And that is just amazing, isn’t it?
I’m writing this because I want you to know that I see you and I understand how you might be feeling. I also want to encourage you to take small steps at a time and to be kind to yourself. It sure is a rocky road but it can also be sweet and lovely – on that note, here is my recipe of Rocky Road! By the way, cooking and baking – being part of the process and getting to know the ingredients is a very good way of normalising food and sweets – and making it less threatening.
- 2 dl raw nuts (I used almonds, cashews and hazelnuts)
- 0.5 dl goji berries
- 200 g vegan chocolate 70% or more, preferably without white refined sugar / or your choice of chocolate
- 1 tbsp maple syrup (if you use dark chocolate, but it is optional)
- A pinch of sea salt
- Grated coconut to sprinkle on top
- 5 soaked dates
- 1 tbsp peanut butter
- 3 tbsp water
Start with mixing the dates, peanut butter and water – you want it to become smooth and not too loose. Place it in a bag that you can cut a small hole in later, when it’s time to drizzle it over the rocky road. Put the bag with the cream in the fridge (this will make it more firm) and get started with the rocky road.
Chop the nuts and roast them in a dry pan until they get some colour. Melt the chocolate gently, I place the chocolate in a glass bowl on top of a boiling pot – this way it won’t burn. Place the nuts in another bowl and add the rest of the ingredients. Add the melted chocolate and stir. Place it on a piece of baking paper, sprinkle some coconut and goji berries on top and put it in the freezer for about 20 minutes. Bring it out and drizzle the dates and peanut cream on top of it. Put it back in the freezer for another 20 minutes and either keep it there (bring out 10 minutes before serving) or store it in the fridge. It will last for 5 days in the fridge.